❤ SwingmeovertheRainbow

mirror mirror on the wall.

been a down down day yesterday.

was really trying hard to perk up and smile

but somehow somewhere it semms to rain.

lyn kim kim suffered with lung cancer.

when i visited her yesterday reallie felt like tearing.

why life likes to make spoilt of us.

their family isnt doing very well ready with uncle joe down with stroke.

den now kim kim oso suffered with lung cancer.

she dun smoke nor drink. but why?

see her undergo chemotheraphy den the bed filled with hair

but she is still going strong and so brave and cheerie

my heart aches.

she's so strong and positive.

but she can go anytime. we all know.

happy that she accepted christ. Praise the Lord!!

i noe with Lord beside her she'll fine peace and strength :))

and lets pray that miracles will work thru her with God.

and when uncle Paul came,

his words made me reflect for a moment.

and maybe its GOd thats speaking thru him.

have i really been focusing too much on Worldly things

that i really forgot the true purpose in life?

and i guess i did.

too much of spending and getting things that i want.

too much of controlling cash and thinking wad ought to buy and not.

focusing on attention and trying to make a mark in the places i'm in.

i cant really explain wads worldly things but i get wad he meant.

guess sometime later i should get back to church to get back my focus.

not now but i dunno when.

when that part of me inside can really let go of wads holding me back.

i need peace. too much thoughts thats running inside.

too much thots that i could have put down and resolved better.

and before i prepared to sleep i read his mail.

thou he was trying to explain his part in a nice way

i can sense thorns.

why must people talk like that?

i wasnt angry with him.

maybe she explained in a wrong manner and mistook my words la.

i jus felt that he should be more responsible as a Vice head.

mc meeting so long den have once.

den attend meeting not jus to report or must have anything to say den attend or impt one wad.

ur presence represents a support and responsibility from you.

being there to listen to noe wads happening around and bonding with the rest is as important oso isnt it?

even if you think that u really cant attend,

we must oso at least inform the secretary that u cant attend right?

im seriously not angry. but i jus feel it wasnt right.

and wad discuss with nana den didn discuss with him and make decision w/o him..

this is damn political and narrow minded la.

shall not talk abt it anymore la.

make myslef so confused too.

am i really that bad in handling the cell?

or is it jus you?

why i wont face such problems with the rest?

and shouldn u have more initiatives

and not wait til i ask u to do things den u ask me to do sui sui for you den u do?